outta my head

anyone who has ever battled depression knows that when you can "get out of your head," things seem to get better. for whatever reason, when i'm depressed, i can't see very far past the end of my own nose. i think too much, and most of my thoughts lean toward the negative.

i've found that i get the same way when i'm dealing with migraines. the weather is changing yet again (maybe we'll actually get back to fall weather!) and so i'm having a lot of headaches. i woke up with one this morning. but instead of allowing myself to be restricted by it, today i decided that i would get past the pain and live.

there's a lady that lives down the cul-de-sac in front of our house that i talk to every morning at the bus stop. she's a hoot, and we get along really well. this morning, i actually invited her into my house so i could show her a vulgar, yet hilarious, movie clip that was emailed to me yesterday. then i walked down to her house with her to see her beautiful hibiscus plants and her thomas kinkade print (we're both fans of his). i had a really nice time! of course my headache was there, but i was able to push it into the background and concentrate on what was going on in front of me.

i hope that i can continue on this same path today, but i am also trying to be as realistic as possible. if i get hit by the nausea, etc. that sometimes comes with the migraines, i may not be able to ignore it as well. but at least for now, i am outta my head. and that's actually a good thing!