weekend update

i just failed the "word verification" when leaving a comment on another blog. eh.

let's see...what's new? yes, i'm still working through my childhood issues. i'm hoping to have the aid of a professional by the end of the week. sometimes, what i feel overpowers me and i just don't know what to do, so i usually express it via my body - fatigue, aches, pains, etc. the mind is an amazing and annoying organ. writing about things here does really help. sorry if it makes you roll your eyes, but - hey - it's my blog.

in other news, i reached client #50 last week! it took me from august, 2004 until february, 2005 to get here, but i did it. escaping into other peoples' issues is therapeutic for me, believe it or not. i have gotten pretty good at what they call "bracketing," which is basically leaving work at work.

this week i have declared "i am not doing anything for anyone" week. i usually watch a friend's little boy 2 days per week gratis, but i told her that i need to feel what it's like to be all about me. being a psychologist herself, she not only understood, but offered to watch punkin on tuesday.

the poor captain doesn't really understand all of this mumbo jumbo. being an engineer, he separates himself from his feelings, which has served him well. he believes that felings are evil and will ultimately end in the destruction of our marriage. i just wish he could understand that this is about me and only me.

well, that's about it. i'm thinking of you guys and i hope you don't think i'm a total nut case. but if you do, que sera, sera.