bippity boppity boo

i find it interesting that people usually have a list of things they don't like about themselves. sometimes, they get motivated to change one or more items on the list. other times, the list remains unchanged for weeks, months, decades, forever. i've never come across anyone whose list of things they like about themselves is longer than the aforementioned "bad list." it's often quite a challenge for people to pay compliments to the mirror.

that being said, there are some things about myself that i would like changed. as in, someone needs to find a friggin' magic wand and change this stuff for me because i am too lazy to do it myself. oh yeah - number one is that i tend to be lazy about taking care of myself. go to the gym and work out? nah...have a pop-tart. you can go to the gym any old time. eat a salad for lunch? are you insane? chocolate ice cream is a well-rounded meal in itself, especially if it has nuts in it! more excuses spout out of my brain when it comes to yoga, meditation, praying...anything that might benefit my psyche in any way.

this is the stuff that nervous breakdowns are made of. my good qualities are helpful in my profession: good listener, empathic, kind, generous, loyal, dedicated, trustworthy, dependable. but while i'm busy being all these good things, my enthusiasm level slowly diminishes until i feel like i can't give anything anymore.

i have an image of who i'd really like to be. i would be physically fit, i'd eat healthier, i'd take time every day to restore my soul, and i would talk a lot to the captain and punkin. we get so absorbed in our own worlds sometimes that when we do talk, it seems like weeks have passed.

so...if you had a magic wand, what would you change about yourself? and would you please change me first?