a letter to my father

dear dad,

i am writing this letter to you to let you know how angry i am at you. i have never expressed it before because i was punished for being angry as a kid. you knew that mom had mental problems, yet you worked 12 - 14 hour days, leaving me alone with her. you took care of your needs, not mine. didn't you know that your job as a father is to nurture and protect your child?

instead you decided to ignore all of our problems, going out of town, staying at the office or working outside so you wouldn't have to be burdened with any of our feelings. as a result, i got to be mom's virtual spouse. i got to finish dinner when she had passed out. i got to wash and fold the clothes. i got to listen to her rant and rave about how unfair the world was.

that was shitty, dad. i see you trying to make everything up with punkin, but that just hurts me worse. she's worth it, but i wasn't? i am just learning how to be angry and it is intense. you're my dad and i am not going to hold any grudges or disrespect you. but it's my time to be pissed. and you're just going to have to deal with it.

the daughter you abandoned,
tigger